Sunday, April 26, 2009

Life sucks

There are some good reasons behind the above title. I have started feeling the pressure of Class XII even before a month has passed since the beginning of the new session. Its not that I am not studying, but no matter how much I try to convince myself that my studies are getting on quite well and there is still ample time left, every evening, the pressure seems to mount a bit more. I have no idea as to why this is happening, but I just can't seem to be perfectly satisfied with my efforts.

Then again, I feel that this irritating , extreme heat is responsible for making me tired. After school gets over at 1.45 p.m. , when the sun is at its cruellest, I have to rush to my tuitions. The worst part of it is that I have to take my lunch in between and nothing is as difficult as eating in that afternoon heat in front of the school church. So, when I finally return home at around 4.30 p.m. , I can't concentrate on my studies beyond 9 o' clock and start feeling sleepy! But, the routine is going to turn worse from tomorrow. Our dear, dear , generous principal has fixed new school timings and the new school hours are from 7.35 a.m. in the morning to 12 noon. What an idea sirjee! As if there is no sun in the sky at 12 noon! For me, the more detestable part is that I have to get up earlier in the morning. The school gates will close at 7.20 a.m. To think that previously, I used to sleep till 7.10 or 7.15 in the morning! At least, the mornings would be comfortable and I would get ready easily in twenty minutes to reach school by 8 a.m.

And these elections and the Election Commision and their thousand and eighty seven rules are making my mother's life miserable. There is nothing new about her being busy during the elections but she has this crazy boss this time, who started making the entire staff work round the clock two months prior to the election. So now, they are all tired and of course, this heat is making them all feel worse. In a five phase election, elections in this city and North and South 24 Parganas had to be held in the last phase. Why could they not have been in the first or second phase? At least, my mother's troubles would be over soon.

So, in short, my life really sucks at present...


newsgroups said...

Oh dear... I wish you much strength. Hope your life is turning back to normal soon.
Take care.

B. O'Hemian said...

Naah... life doesn't suck. At least not for these minor issues.

Anuradha said...

hey life could be worse , couldn't it ?? Look at soooo many who don't get to school, don't have friends and don't lead the usual school might be a little bit hectic sometimes but it can't suck :)

Anonymous said...

hey dont get pissed off so early.. not to put on some more worries on ur head.. but 4 sure there is yet more to come gurlie.. n wid tym u ll b geting acustomed wid it... just take a chil pill and al d bst for ur final yr.. trust me u gonna miss it 1ce ur done wid it..
i still mis the press ..*sniff sniff*


SPIRITed! said...

Uff Sinjini, you are overreacting.
But then again, it IS rather hot.

*starts packing her bag to trot off to Paris*

Optimism, bleh.

Dibbasatya said...

Hey I used to go to school from 7:30am to 2pm. And don't worry too much about 12th grade, everything will be fine. I did not study anything in 12, but I did not went too badly after it got over.

newsgroups said...

One more remark: I remember my own last school-year before I went to the university. The pressure was immense, and it was my toughest year. Don’t worry, after then life will be more normal.
But how big the pressure this year might be, take care to get some free time now and then, to do whatever you like. I made that mistake back then: I put all my whishes aside for my school work, and worked, and worked, and worked. But I ended up overworked and afraid for everything that would disturb my hard-worked-for future. So that is why I am advising you to relax from time to time. Your are not only living for the future, but you are also living now.

Woodsmoke said...

Aami gyan debo na. Tui ekhono obdi jerokom bhabe porashonar byaparta manage korechhish, sheto aami ekhono korte parina! :)
Kintu vent kora majhe majhe khub bhalo. Ar blog e jodi na korte parish, tahole kothaye korbi. Bhalo thakish.

Rohit Talwar said...

I'm pissed. You think way too much for a school student. I never put more than two hours after school; but then that's me. I managed good scores too. Whatever it is that's adding to the pressure, kick it. There's a lot more to life than a stupid report card. But then that's me, like I said... and Subhadip is right,

Butterfly said...

Thank you so much, thank you for all your advice and concern:-)

Well, maybe all the issues were not minor after all...

hey, thanks for visiting my blog. :-)Actually, I hadn't wanted to make the post so serious and I wasn't that serious about all the issues in the post either. I have experienced worse situations myself. But, the blog had to be updated and at that moment, I could only think of the terrible heat. So, I came up with this post.

Yeah, I know I'm going to miss my final year...that's true...

Look, everyone doesn't have the capability to get up early in the morning. I know 6.15 or 6.30 is not unusually early, but for me it is, specially since I never take a nap in the afternoon...never at all, not even for half an hour. Thanks for your concern :-), but I intend to study in class XII. You might have been comfortable even while not studying , but I won't be, you know...

This is why i love you so much. I just wanted to express my feelings and I did and you are the only one who understood why I did. Thank you...:-)

Yeah, I know all this, but I just wanted to write how I was feeling at that time. :-)